Here goes nothing.

Every minute goes by, and we don't get any younger, and we can't go back. I tend to hold on to my past to much. Sometimes, I just close my eyes and wish I could go back and be four years old again. Do you? It's amazing how time passes and how much changes. This is how it goes in most cases: First, you don't know each other. Then, you're best friends. Next, something that seems important at the time comes in between your friendship and after a while you don‘t even recognize the person. Yes, they have an affect your life, not always positive, but they never stick around long enough for it to mean anything special. Even though at one point in time, “special” would have been the exact adjective you’d use to describe them before…Before? Well, before is the past and the past is over. I don't want live in the past. I strive to live for the now. I think it’s still natural to miss the old days though. The days of just us. No boyfriends, no drama, just us. The two inseparable best friends. Things change though, not for the better, they just change. It's unfortunate though. Losing such a great friendship because of nonsense. Seeing what can happen to any kind of relationship makes me wonder, "Is that going to happen to us?" We're together because when we’re with each other, I make the most of this life I was given. But still I can’t help to wonder, “What if….?”. I hate those words. 'What' and ‘if’ two words as non-threatening as words come. But put them together, side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?'. . Are you happy? You seem lonely…I mean, we all are at one point. Even though I am surrounded by hundreds, even thousands of people everyday, I still feel like I am all alone at times. It's not that unusual really. A teenage girl who feels alone…big whoop. There’s a difference though. I might feel lonely at times, but never un-happy. It’s the little things that make your life meaningful. The little things that cancel out all those times you feel sad or down or lonely. It was Winnie-the-Pooh who said, “Sometimes the smallest things take up room in your heart” I agree completely. For example: Love, it’s one of those little things that make your life complete. It’s like that piece that you never knew was ever missing, but once it‘s found, you can’t imagine not being without it. Turns out, I needed that missing piece in my life and lucky me, I found him. I wasn’t looking for him, it was a surprise….the best surprise. Life, my friends, is full of surprises. That surprise when the vending machine drops two Mountain Dews’ instead of one. That surprise when you turn the radio station and the exact song you wanted to hear is just starting. That surprise when you pull your sweatshirt over your head and your hair still looks flawless. Or that surprise when you find that one guy and his hand fits perfectly in yours, his smile makes you smile and you feel like you’re in a fairytale. We never expect these things to happen, they just do. What if our lives were only made up of these moments? Would we still appreciate them or would they be taken for granted? It’s seems that as people, we only ever want what we can’t have…. Why is that? I pray that one day I’ll be satisfied with myself. I pray today that the death of Josh will get easier on my friends and his family. I pray that my family will stay safe and healthy. I also pray that I will have the strength to battle high school, which can be confusing at times, but hey, I suppose that's life and sometimes it doesn't make sense…Normal is only a setting on the dishwasher.
Enough rambling now.

serious post= dumb picture... Oh, the things I do with Miss Britt(: